A Reflection Upon Reading Braiding Sweetgrass

This was originally given as a talk at a local Unitarian Universalist congregation. Parts of it have been edited to better adapt to being a blog post.

This will also have mentions of AI, as well as discussions of violent content and descriptions of waste. Reader discretion is advised.

I have now read this book, Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer, twice. And both times, two stories stood out to me, both tackling the same root theme:

The Thanksgiving Address, and the Wendigo.

The Thanksgiving Address is in a chapter where the author discusses a practice common among Native American groups in the New York state region. In this practice, before any official business or school can be conducted, the people all give the Thanksgiving Address, a multi-part address, with each part narrated by a different speaker, in which the people thank specific attributes of nature for their gifts. “We thank the water for quenching our thirst and giving us life; We thank the birds for gifting us song and watching over us in the skies,” etc. The address doesn’t just have thanks – it’s also a statement of accepting responsibility. For humans are the only species aware of, and with the ability to take, our responsibility to be stewards of the water, the earth, and the Earth’s creatures. “We thank the water for quenching our thirst and giving us life. May we endeavor to keep the waters clean for our nonhuman siblings who drink from the same waters as us.”

This isn’t a one-sided “master over the elements” relationship. It’s a reciprocal one. Over and over, throughout the book, Robin Wall Kimmerer stresses that the relationship we humans have with nature is a reciprocal one. If we treat our gardens well, then there will be berries and wild things. If we tear down our trees, then we are left with barren rocks. If we poison our water, we will have none to drink and neither will the salamanders or the birds. But if we clean up our water, then we will have salamanders and fish and birds again.

The Thanksgiving Address stood out to me as an organized practice of gratitude among a collective of people. This is unheard of, especially given that we live in a society whose central tenant is this: “For all the wealth it professes to make, the central tenant of the market economy is that there is scarcity.” That’s a direct quote from the book, but it’s true – we live in a society that pushes scarcity on all of us. And when you live in a scarcity mindset, you more often than not look at relationships in a transactional way. “What can you do for me? My time and energy is limited. If you cannot give me something in return, then I’m not sticking around.”

Whereas, if you are raised in the Thanksgiving Address and the ideas such a practice supports, you start to think, “Well gosh, I’m glad we have birds in the sky, and water to drink and earth to grow our fruits and veggies with. There is abundance all around me. I need to take care of it, or else it will disappear.” This may sound like it’s still a reciprocal relationship, but here’s the truth – even if humans disappeared overnight, water will still flow, birds will still sing, flowers will still grow and the Earth will keep going. Life. Goes. On. That doesn’t absolve us from the responsibility of being mindful of what we do. There are segments of the book dedicated to the Honorable Harvest, which includes the practice of not taking the first thing you see, of leaving the last of a thing behind, of giving a gift to nature before you harvest something. The Honorable Harvest as a practice is about stewarding the harvest so that you’re not the only one benefiting from it.

To elaborate on that further, I have to bring up the other story that stood out to me in this book: The Wendigo.

My apologies to the Indigenous listeners in the audience, because Wendigo as a concept is not something to be taken lightly. Too often, Wendigo is treated as a monster-of-the-week in movies, games, and comics. I’m not immune from this. I made a whole comic in 2016 about people hunting a Wendigo that got loose on Halloween night. But if I had known in 2016 what I know now, I would have written that comic very differently.

There are variations of the Wendigo story and how it’s told, but the core of the story goes something like this:

A human, in winter, ordered their brother to go hunting in the woods and bring back food. The brother comes back with food, but the human is never satisfied, demanding more and more food. Eventually, the human eats their brother. This turns the human into the Wendigo, a monster cursed with eternal hunger who can never be satisfied. The Wendigo can sound like a human, but it’s always mimicry – the Wendigo’s goal is always to keep eating until there is nothing left.

White people are sometimes told that this story is a cautionary tale about cannibalism in winter. The truth is this story came about in Indigenous communities as a commentary around capitalism. Capitalism is a system that encourages Wendigo behavior – monsters who were once people, demanding more and more, never satisfied even when there is nothing left to harvest.

Combating Wendigo behavior is a multi-prong strategy: it’s resisting it in summer, when there is abundance everywhere. It’s expressing gratitude for what you have been given. It’s taking responsibility for your actions and partaking in the Honorable Harvest. It’s never taking more than you need because there are nonhuman creatures that also rely on the water and the earth.

But there was one question that came up several times in the Intersectional Reading Group regarding Wendigo. “How do you stop Wendigo behavior in other people?”

I thought about it, and to answer that question, I want to dovetail the conversation again, specifically into discussions of “AI”.

“AI” is a label a lot of tech bros and billionaires are slapping onto everything, from large language models (or LLMs) to Photoshop (which, for the record, is not AI. Tech bros love slapping the label of “AI” onto things that are not actually AI because they want to paint the picture that it’s inevitable and you cannot resist it).

The other truth about “AI” is that the term is specific to LLMs and image generation programs that are “trained” by feeding the software data. And much of that data fed into the software is literature, art, illustrations, personal information, and other creations made by people. Did the tech bros ask for permission from the artists, the writers, and the people? No. Tech bros stole it. All of it. There is a reason many artists are against AI, and most of the argument comes down to “stop using my art without my permission, you talentless hacks trying to pretend to be artists without doing the work of actually learning to draw. I know you are doing this to cash in on being perceived as an artist without actually doing the work. Stop profiting off of my work and learn to draw yourselves.” And credit where credit is due – there are people who learned to draw because these LLMs and image generators could not capture what it was they were trying to do. And once they learned to draw, they loved it and stopped using the programs. But the programs are still around, because it’s easier for some people to pretend to be artists by theft.

“AI” is also “trained” by “curators.” These “curators”, as was revealed by investigative journalists, are actually laborers in places like Kenya and Uganda, who are forced to scan the worst content on the internet to “train” the AI into recognizing what is violent or pornographic. The content they are forced to see is so awful that many who take the jobs quit within a year and have to get treatments for post-traumatic stress disorder. But tech bros don’t want you, the average person, to know that’s how “AI” gets “refined”. Tech bros want to paint the picture that “AI” can “train itself.” It cannot. It relies on the labor of people, who are chewed up – eaten alive, you may say.

In Braiding Sweetgrass, Robin Wall Kimmerer writes a story about what she would do if she encountered Wendigo. And her strategy is to make a pot of buckthorn soup. And when Wendigo bursts down her door and demands to be fed, she feeds it the buckthorn soup. From the book, “A small dose of buckthorn is a laxative. A strong dose is a purgative, and a whole kettle, an emetic. It is Windigo nature: he wanted every last drop. So now he is vomiting up coins and coal slurry, clumps of sawdust from my woods, clots of tar sand, and the little bones of birds. He spews Solvay waste, gags on an entire oil slick. When he’s done, his stomach continues to heave but all that comes up is the thin liquid of loneliness.”

Artists, writers, and programmers online have found a few different ways to stop “AI” LLMs and image generators. One of the best, but riskiest, ways to do it is to “poison” the programs. One can do this by feeding specially-coded images into the programs, and setting up Markov text generator programs that catch the “AI” software and forces it into nonsensical text rabbit holes. These make it so that the “AI” programs are unable to “generate” anything. Or if they can generate anything, anything the “AI” programs spit out is gross, nonsensical, and useless.

It’s not just poisoning the Wendigo. It’s also treating anything that Wendigo touches as poison. In regards to AI, I have some good news, though I have to give some context.

The Eisners are an award ceremony in the field of comics. Named after Will Eisner, who was a master with ink brush and was one of the first artists to treat comics seriously as an art form, the Eisner Awards are highly regarded in comics. Think of it like the Oscars, but for comics. And within the last month, the Eisners dropped someone from consideration for the awards because their submission used “AI”.

It’s not just awards ceremonies that are banning “AI generated works.” Art expos, gallery shows, calls for submissions into magazines and publications, festivals, and more places are updating their policies to say “no AI generated work will be accepted.” These organizers do not want the poison in their wells. They have found the Wendigos, and the poison they are vomiting.

But what about the Wendigo who was once human? Is there a way to bring them back to humanity?

In Robin Wall Kimmerer’s telling of how she would encounter the Wendigo, she continues. She tells us that after Wendigo is poisoned from the buckthorn soup, she will go back and get a healing tea. She reassures it that this new tea is not poison. It’s a mix of strawberries, maple, silverbells, and other herbs that inspire connection, gratitude, and healing. She says, “There is just one more part of the medicine. I am no longer afraid. I sit down beside him on the newly greening grass. “Let me tell you a story,” I say as the ice melts away. “She fell like a maple seed, pirouetting from the autumn sky.”” And tells the story of Sky Woman, a story about human and animal working together to build Turtle Island.

Tech bros and their ilk are, fundamentally, lonely. They can have 14 children and billions of followers on social media, and still not know love. All they know is how to take and take. They have not been shown how to express gratitude or thanks. They do not know the work it takes to make art, or make the flowers grow, or sing the song of praise.

Let us sing our songs, dance our dances, make our art, grow our flowers and berries and herbs, and share all of these with each other. Let us give our Thanksgiving addresses. Robin Wall Kimmerer teaches that this is how we defeat Wendigo behavior – we build our communities. We take care of each other, including our nonhuman kin. If Wendigo wants to shed their skin, leave behind their poison, and join us, they can – but they have to put in the work.

It takes work to build our communities and be good stewards of the land and water. But Nature rewards those who put in the effort. And that reward is love.

The Anti-Censorship Comix Jam is NOW LIVE!

A graphic announcing the cartoonist Co-op Anti-Censorship Comix Anthology launching today. Text reads, “The Cartoonist Cooperative Presents; the Anti-Censorship Comix Anthology. Viewer Discretion is Advised. Available for free at https://cartoonist.coop/acj2026" Illustrations of a snake, a peach half, and greenery frame the graphic. At the center surrounded by yellow star shine is the anthology cover. It features a peach with oozing white fluid. The text on the cover reads “FUCK CENSORSHIP; Anti Censorship Anthology.” A stamp on the cover also reads “Approved by the Cartoonist Co-op”

F$@K CENSORSHIP!

The Cartoonist Co-op (which I’m a member of) has a new anthology out – F$@K CENSORSHIP! The Anti-Censorship Comix Jam!

A WORD OF CAUTION:

If you want to engage with this anthology and the statements on it, there are content warnings. Please, ONLY engage with the anthology and the website if you are up for it. Many of the comics and works on there (including my submission) have deeply upsetting, triggering, and sometimes downright awful material. The content warnings are there to help you prepare and gauge what to engage with, if anything. PLEASE use those content warnings for your safety.

This anthology was made after itch.io started cracking down on NSFW comics, art, and other content on their website. We understand that they only did it because the payment processors (including Stripe and Mastercard) are pushing for outright porn bans. And we also understand that those companies are doing so because of demands from alt-right “women’s rights” groups out of Australia (no I’m not kidding).

That said, companies censoring work sets a dangerous precedent. Because where does the line get drawn – and who draws it? And when those lines get drawn, who gets punished?

These are questions worth asking, and we elaborate on this as a collective in a statement on the Cartoonist Co-op website and on the Comix Jam.

Again, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED that there are content warnings and upsetting material on the website. All the content/trigger warnings are listed on the front page of said website. ONLY engage with it if you are a) an adult, and b) ok with engaging with the material. You DON’T have to engage with it.

(I’m also re-iterating this because I did make a submission for this anthology, and I don’t want anyone leaving comments saying that any particular piece upset them, though I will probably get those complaints anyway. I warned you. Multiple times.)

So Why Did I Participate?

Because the older I get, the more I stand firm on one thing: no censorship. End of sentence.

It’s not just a matter of artistic expression, whether that expression is for catharsis or any other emotional release. Sometimes the drive to create something – anything – is too great to keep contained. There is that. Also, those questions I mentioned are worth asking: who is doing the censorship, and why? And who benefits from the censorship? More often than not, the benefactors are people trying to silence black, brown, and queer people, especially in this particular time in the United States. To be frank, it’s more than annoying that we are silenced while fascist ideologies and their “AI art” plagiarized from actual artists are allowed prime time on national airwaves.

I participated in this project because these questions matter. And it matters to keep making art – even gross, awful, perverted, even deeply triggering work.

I’ve seen the IBM management proclamation: “Computers cannot be held accountable, therefore they cannot make management decisions.” Then someone took that and made it “computers cannot be sad or horny. Therefore they cannot make artistic decisions.” Art is a form of expression. But if the only expression we allow fits within certain parameters, that’s censorship. Art is release, catharsis, expression, and skill, all combined to make the viewer react in some way. And part of what makes it art is that human element – a human made it, and a human engages with it. Whether they feel empathy, disgust, joy, etc, what matters is that we feel something.

That’s why I participated.

That’s all for now. Be safe, and take care of yourselves.

You. Are. Awesome.

An Open Letter of Anti-Censorship

The following open letter was written as a letter to the editor of a regional newspaper. The newspaper serves an area where the library was under threat of losing funding for carrying LGBTQ+ books like my book, The Legend of Jamie Roberts, volume 1. (For more on that, I wrote a blog post all about it here.)

Dear Editors,

A local resident emailed me recently to let me know there are people in Steubenville trying to cut funding for your local libraries. Why? Because the libraries are carrying books like mine, The Legend of Jamie Roberts. The books I write have LGBTQ+ characters. This is reason enough for some people to try and convince others to cut funding from your local libraries.

That’s unfortunate. Because public libraries are great places to seek stories and information from perspectives besides your own. These folks will try to couch it in “concern for the children.” But it’s not about the children at this point. More on that in a second.

Here’s the thing. Public libraries have books on all kinds of subjects and points of view. Personally, I disagree with JD Vance, Ann Coulter, and Bill O’Reilly. Do I want their books banned? No. Do I want the libraries to have their funding cut because they carry those books? No.

Public libraries are a public good for everyone in every community. No matter your political leanings or religious beliefs. I’m an LGBTQ+ author and former librarian who regularly goes to church on Sunday. Those that read my books, know that.

About those “concerns for the children” – I grew up with people who tried to limit access to stories by and about LGBTQ+ people (limited as they were when I was a child). Did it work? No. I still found those books and read them. All that these “concerns for the children” instilled in me is that the adults in my life tried to control what I read and could access. Once I got to read these books, that made me question the legitimacy of their authority more than anything else. Why would they try to keep these books out of my hands? Why were they trying to dictate what I could read? They can try to hide behind “concerns for the children” all they want. The real reason is because they want to control what you know and learn, and keep you afraid of certain, specific people.

Young people should be curious and engaged in their world. That’s what books foster. It’s better to be curious and engaged than blindly obedient. If people want their kids to grow and thrive, encourage them to engage with their curiosity and to read broadly. 

I am firmly against censorship, no matter if it manifests as explicit book banning or trying to cut funding for public libraries.

I don’t just write this to voice my thoughts, though. I also write this to encourage your readers to start attending library board meetings, and write letters to library board members and the local board of education. Talk to friends and encourage them to do the same.

Public libraries are shaped by the input of their readers and their local community. So what kind of community is Steubenville trying to form?

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That’s all for now. Thank you for your support.

You. Are. Awesome.

It’s Nib and Ink Fest Time!

Y’all, May is the month of Nib and Ink Fest – an online festival organized and run by the Cartoonist Co-op to celebrate comics!

We had the opening ceremony and the Minicomic Awards. There are tons of other programming happening now, from portfolio reviews to panels.

In fact, I ran a panel on Sunday, called “Tabling At Conventions for Beginners”! The panel is available on YouTube for replay:

Are you an artist who just got accepted in an artist alley? Have no idea what you’re doing? Then check out this video! There is also a very robust Q&A session afterward included in the recording.

This Saturday I’m running another panel, called “How To Make a Newsletter Your Fans Love to Read.” I’ll make a separate blog post for that one later this week.

I’m not the only one running panels, either – topics include Supporting Creatives With Jobs You’ve Never Heard About, What Art School Didn’t Teach You (all about the business side of art), and (I’m I’m excited to tune in for) Having Fun with Backgrounds and RSS & You.

Be sure to tune in for these workshops! They will all be livestreamed on YouTube and Zoom. If you want to participate in livechats, you have to watch on Zoom. All Zoom links and panels – and shops and more! – are on the official Nib & Ink Fest website.

That’s all for now. Thank you for watching and reading!

You. Are. Awesome.

I’m Not Selling Prints Anymore. Here’s Why

This may sound scandalous to my fellow artists out in the convention circuit, but I’m not going to sell prints at my table (or my Ko-Fi shop) anymore.

WHY?

Let’s start at the top.

I made a Forest Spirit print back in 2016, and for the most part, she sold pretty well! She was a big show-stopper at conventions. Like, she would catch your eye and keep your attention there. And she did sell well. So I branched out into other designs.

However, sales of prints have been declining for me since 2018. It’s gotten to the point where prints are not my top 3 selling category anymore (as of June 2023).

Plus, the feedback I get from fans often boils down to, “I don’t have the space to hang any more prints!” It’s hard to sell something when the fans don’t have room for it.

The other problem is that prints are a pain in the ass to transport.

This is especially true now that I live on the top floor of my apartment building, towards the back of my complex. I really do not want to make multiple trips to the third floor in a building with no elevator.

Not to mention that you need print bags or rubber bands to bag up prints when you sell them. And I can’t seem to source print bags that aren’t crap.

All these problems are for selling at conventions. But online? Forget about it. Shipping tubes are tricky enough for me to find. Everything else I sell online can either be delivered digitally or flat in a padded envelope. Prints are more difficult to ship the larger they get. And I can’t ship prints in the same bundle as everything else I offer – thus making me charge more for shipping (which customers and I are NOT psyched about).

I’d rather not deal with the headaches. Especially since prints are not the bestsellers at my table or online.

So, no more prints from me.

IS THERE AN ALTERNATIVE?

Funny enough, art books are the best thing I’ve ever offered! At conventions, my art books sell the most. And the more art books I sell, the more books in general I sell. There’s a reason why my #1 category in sales is Books. And they are the LARGEST sales margin. For me, books make 5 times more than the #2 best-selling category. FIVE TIMES. It’s bonkers.

And honestly, that’s fine with me. I like making art books, and I want to make more of them.

If you are new to selling your work, please remember this: what works for me may not work for you. Some artists are really successful at prints! I’m more successful at books. Each artist’s mix is different. You won’t know what will work until you try it yourself. I just wanted to share what’s been working for me, and what hasn’t, so you can understand my process.

Best of luck to you out there!

That’s all for now. Thank you for reading!

You. Are. Awesome.